Today, I put up my first vision board, and I find myself grappling with mixed feelings. On one hand, I feel that exhilarating dopamine hit when I talk about the incredible future I want to build. On the other hand, a wave of anxiety washes over me. What is this anxiety about? Is it the fear of underachieving? Not living my life in the order I envision? The unsettling realization that I lack control?
This experience has turned into a fascinating mindfulness exercise, prompting me to dive deep into my desires. The Buddhist in me raises red flags at the word “want,” while the social entrepreneur inside me is eager to build, achieve, and gather resources. It can be paralyzing, no?
Rethinking the Vision Board
As I reflect on the term "vision board," I wonder if it's misguided. Sure, it outlines a vision of what I think will bring me fulfillment and meaning, but it often feels more like a list of things I want:
- I want a wife and kids.
- I want to provide for a community.
- I want to be surrounded by nature.
- I want to earn my black belt in jiu-jitsu.
- I want a few dozen alpacas…
But are these desires truly meant for me? What if destiny has other plans? The truth is, it feels impossible to know what the future holds. All I really want is to be present for all that the universe has to offer, to embrace each experience with mindfulness, and to respond with integrity and character.
Finding Balance
Creating this vision board has sparked questions that I hadn’t fully considered before. Am I setting myself up for disappointment by focusing on what I want? Or is it an essential step in clarifying my values and aspirations?
Perhaps it’s about finding a balance between intention and acceptance. While I can set my sights on goals, I also need to remain open to the possibilities that life presents. After all, the power grid could collapse, leading us back to a barter society. If that were to happen, would my vision board still hold the same importance?
Dare to Envision
In the end, I realize that making this vision board may not be a fruitless activity. While it represents my desires, it also serves as a reminder to remain flexible and present in my journey. It doesn't hurt to dream and set intentions, even if the future is uncertain. So, I’ll try to keep my eyes on what inspires me while staying open to the unexpected twists and turns life may take.